It's time to get my obese class 3 fingers moving on the keyboard again!
Unknowingly, I've actually forsaken my blog for like 2 months..
wad the hell is wrong with me ? lol, nah, i'm just plain lazy lah~
I dont know how long this entry will turn out to be but i'll try my best to keep it short while recaping how I lived my penny-making life.

• 13 June -  From a finance clerk, I turned to become a HR Assistant. Come to think of it, really appreciated the opportunities my manager has given to someone with zero HR background like me (thou bullshiters started saying things like 'she abused her authority by poaching me to her department," etc.
  
• 28 June - My first payroll turned out to be a nightmare, a handful of staffs complained that for anonymous reasons their salary have been deducted. Therefore confrontation was inevitable. To be exact, I only did the cheque payment whilst the previous HR officer did the giro payment before she left the company. So, if they were to demand explanations from me, I probably needed some time to study it before I could give them any satisfactory answers. At one point of time I couldnt quite take it and broke down into tears. Sounds stupid but I'm also quite puzzled with my inability to control tears recently.  But thanks to Auntie, who has helped me alot alot, whether are they encouragements or aids to calm the bunch of antagonized ________.
• 8 July - My manager's big day! First time attending wedding dinner in my parents' absence. As my kharkis know, I'm really a dummy in socialising and I cant imagine myself sitting at the table to eat n eat n eat without talking!??!?! Anyway, the place where e dinner was held was at our very own hotel; so sianed 1/2, and the food was ________.
  
• 18 July - Auntie told me she will be leaving. ( tHuNdErS & LiGhTNiNgs!!!) Really hate to see her leave lah, but like what my manager has said : We shouldnt be selfish, if she had found her greener pastures outside, why should we stop her from leaving ?
  
• 19 July -  The replacement for Auntie came. This middle-age man is a super duper stucked-up fellow so full of himself. He love to give lectures, share his past experiences which I AM NOT INTERESTED TO FIND OUT can?!?!?!?!??!?!?! His arrival made me more relunctant to see Auntie go. He created chaos to folders, his suckiest learning attitude (Anyone who saw how Auntie puked blood when she is teaching him would want to step forward and give this uncle 2 tight slaps) plus he was sucha great apple polisher (said things like 'I respect the director, I like the GM, He is sucha nice young chap etc etc... ) - Conclusion:  SHUT UP! You're a pain in the arses!  
  
• 21 July - Went back to work on a Saturday. In the past if you were to ask me to go back to work on a saturday on a voluntary basis, I would rather you chop me alive. But then, it appears to be no issue. Probably becos' I think there was really a need to do so lah.. my place was so cramped n in a terrible mess, so gotta go back do some spring cleaning. The worst thing that happened was on the previous day uncle volunteered to come back with us!???!?! fortunately we managed to brainstorm as many as a thousand reasons to keep him away. woohoo!
  
•  27 July -  Went Kbox with my collegues; sort of a farewell gathering for Auntie. Again KBOX's usual practice, they will freeze their customers in the cold room as though they are freezing some poultry in the freezer.
  
• 28 July - Quoted from entry dated 15 May 2007 : "as for people in my department, i see them as helpful and willing to share till this point of time! lolz". The key phrase was " till this point of time". But at this very moment, my current perpective of them differs with that of the past. Maybe at that time I'm in their department but not now. But how can it be lah? sucha massive change just becos we are serving different bosses??!? Anyway people started showing their true colours. They unconciously revealved their ulterior motives. Every conversation was started for a reason. There was hidden agendas behind every smiles. Every step I took, every words I said was equivalant to stepping on an area filled with land mine. Dont think you won't get yourself into trouble as long as you dont poke your nose into others' business. The rule of the game is this : Your presence already signifies participation.
  
• 31 July - Auntie's last day. As usual the same old makan kharkis, we went out for lunch. No mood to work on that day, I was so afraid I would start crying like a fool but lucky I did not. My tears merely lubricated my eyes lah. Dinner was Dim Sum with Auntie n Boss (my manager). Hais, dont know when will we meet up again....
  
• 1 Aug - I was told something I won't want to know in my entire life - My manager will be leaving. (typhoons+hurricans+thunders+lightnings!!!)

• 2 Aug-5 Aug- I took 2 days plus the entire weekend to make up my mind - I'm leaving too. Everything happened too abruptly. Frankly speaking, I didnt want to leave. I'm considered an inadaptable person. Leaving the place would mean I've to go through the process of job hunting, job interviews, the anxiety of first day reporting to work, building rapport with collegues etc etc, and all this I would say to me are time and energy consuming. At first I'm in a situation of sitting in the middle of the fence. I tried to do self persual like 'leaving shouldnt be the only way out, perhaps the new boss who will be taking over is not 'her' etc etc." Even thou I know existance of devils, there are also presence of angels. People who are willing to share things with you, people who will help you. But after witnessing some events, observing some people and finally listening to advices, I'm no longer so indecisive. Moreover, the person whom I wish to learn things from is leaving, so what's e point of staying on, I dont wanna sound arrogant to you like ' I cannot learn anything from the next person who will take on my boss's position." But i know the identity of the potential candidate so staying on would be disastrous to me. Auntie came back to collect her last payment with the company. This time her turn to do farewell for the both of us. (This Auntie really bth her lah!)
  
• 7 Aug - Went for job interview. Under a very comical and amazing circumstance, I got the job! lolz~ After this incident, I 100% believe in fate; no doubt. I came across this message once in a show : According to study of psychology, when a person suffered from severe emotional setback, there will be 4 stages in his/her reaction. He/she will feel shock, sad, calm and at last accept the reality. I've already underwent these 4 stages. Thou relunctant, now I've convinced myself I'll be leaving.
  
• 10 Aug -  Tooked 3hrs time-off to sign my letter of appointment with the new company. The replacement for me came; another __________ with not only special but hidden identity. But you think I care??!?!?!?. I've never in my entire life knock off so punctually like that day. 5.43pm- pack bag. 5,45pm - left the office. Muahaha. I'll be on leave on a day leave on Monday and half day on Tuesday. Will go back on Tuesday to do exit-clearance and from there end my employment with hotel ______________.

dwell in self-pity 

Thinks that you are always right

Often think others are doing/ did you wrong

Think of ways to eighty-six/exile souls that oppose you 

Smile and express tenderness before u stab others in their backs so deep

Easily swayed by whoever who present and offer their loyalty to you


If you are feeling enraged after reading this entry of mine, YES IT'S U!!!! , whom I am refering to.

Well, my sympathies were always with you, cos you are living sucha sad life~ 

Recently I am feeling so unhappy with this family of mine.
Family not refering to those 4 immediate members. 
Well, I guess this is not a sudden emotion. 
It should be thoughts and feelings accumulated and supressed for over a long period of time. 
It's not me myself and I being petty or calculative,
but everytime I come to think of it, there is always this indescriable feeling of injustice.
This is not an unjustified statment of accuse, neither is it a statement to win sympathy.
For instance, 3 months ago when I went Hong Kong for holiday : why must everyone remind me to buy gifts for my uncle's family when 2 weeks ago, my cousin ( my uncle's son) went Taiwan did not even bring us a piece of shit that belong to a Taiwanese!??!?!?
why must I be like a fool? or why must they be treated differently!?!?!? it is not like their fortune worthed afew million pounds !!?!??! even it is it doesnt mean they will proportionate a part to us ?!?!? why must they be treated like God ? why must their feelings be part of my consideration? Why ?!?!??!?! I just dont understand lor. Can someone enlighten me ? 

Another case would be I am feeling very frustrated with my aunts who LOVE to comment on my craze over dvds. People who know me would know that I am not a mediacorp freak but a everything-except-mediacorp freak! And those aunts of mine would always say " Buy dvd again, u got alot of money hor?!?!?" den why always borrow dvd from me !??!?!?!?? Did I use ur money to buy in the first place ? NO! What i am trying to say is if you want to borrow from me or maybe u forsee this probability that you might one day borrow those things from me, then dont comment on anything ??!??!!? I hope readers can really understand that kind of frustration when people say " huh, why u buy XXXX, nice meh, u've gt alot of money izzit' then a few weeks later ' can i borrow ur XXXX" ! kaox~ sickening lor. I really hate myself for lending them. I have this thought in me: I rather throw it away also dont wanna lend u. Call me selfish all you want. My actions are not coordinating well with my thoughts and my heart.

I remember once someone told me : Any moment you are not earning ur penny, that moments u can only shut-up and listen to others. Well, I'm telling u guys I am no longer the kid who will tolerate everything and everyone for the sake of pocket-money. To me, they belong to history. Now we are talking about present tense and future tense.

Met up with buyi on sat cos that girl complained of boreness to go hm straight away after work, so we decided to slack at Changi Airport.
Indeed an ideal place for slackers like us. lol
I was supposed to meet her 2pm at Changi, but at 2pm I was at Toa Payoh~ hahaha
So that nu ren msg me something like this " I SAY MEET 2PM AT CHANGI U NOE?!?!? NOT 2PM AT AMK ?!?!?!?!? I ARBISH U AH" ....
hahahaha.. so sorry to have made my mama waited me for 35 minutes (to be exact.)
Lunch was at Crystal Jade but we strongly believed that the one located at takashimaya deserved the 10% service charge more.
It was till 6pm when we left the place for Bishan Junction 8.
I should say, we did not have any 'next destination' in mind so we boarded whatever bus that arrived before us.
n finally from there I got myself a decent drinking cup to be put in the office!
yay~

Last saturday was a meet-up to celebrate mr.wang 20th birthday.
Finally had e chance to pass them the souvenirs we bought from Hong Kong.
We went haw par villa in the afternoon.
thou we wanted very much to see which level our dear friend qj aka az will land in after he decease, but we would definately have chose a better place if we knew the outdoor temperature for that day was so intolerable!
Frankly speakin there's really nothing much about the place jus that we needed a place to spend the saturday afternoon n that place happens to be free of charge.
boo~ lol
anyway, dinner was buffet at sakura instead of dian xiao er..
cos i think the guys could no longer stand us naggin at them about their fav 'ban mian' muahaha~
as usual, jecks were inevitable. but other than sympathay i cant think of anything which could help my helpless friend buyii~ lol
oh ya, we also served mr wang with siew mai since anyone who treated him with siew mai could be a hero or a hunk~
Besides that, we also recommended regular eyes check-ups from a certified optician for the 'beholder''s eyes cos he seriously had mistook lusty for beauty!
finally gratitudes goes out to the birthday boy who helped us take the yummy cheesecake! yay!  

Time to update my spider-web-filled blog again!
This blog is not forsaken just that her owner is really too busy~
Has been a week I started work in one of the hotels located at bugis area
(the name of the hotel cant be revealed cos the 'Staff Conduct Manual' states : no spamings and flaming of the hotel organisation in personal blogs) in case the company finds out tmr and I lose the job)
opps. haha
Again, I am placed in the finance department.
Again, this current job of mine has nothing got to dowith my Diploma!
How sad... lol
Well, my new collegues are generally nice and polite lah
but it's kinda obvious who are the ones that clique and who smile to who at the first minute and stab the hardest at the second~
thou it's not spelt out verbally, but you can take it as their hint that office politics exist in that organisation and u must be very alert about every situation u are in ~
as for people in my department, i see them as helpful and willing to share till this point of time! lolz
hmmm...
since accountacy has totally no relation to my course of study, I can expect there are lots of things awaiting for me to pick up~
made quite alot of mistakes initially especially when people start staring at u doing work~ stress de lor!
part of my job scope is to bring cheques to directors for signatures and going to post office on certain days of the week; and this is the best time to sneak and slack around~
overall, till now i am quite immerse in enjoyment of work unlike my previous job, hmm.. probably due to the nature of the industry- hospitality and tourism. As in, the only time where I'll be exposed to this field is when I go for overseas holiday. But even so, I'm not exposed to the operations of the industry lor. So it's really first hand experience in the service industry thou' i am not placed at the frontline lah.
Oh ya, and 2 more things, the hotel toilet is superb clean - lol and the people there except afew who already sell themselves to the company, others go home very punctually!

Here's some updates since it had been quite some time since I last blogged. I've always wanted to blog but I'm too lazy to recall past moments of my life. haha
Anyway..
I've left the temp job at my aunt's office. Mainly becos' the permanent staff has taken over most of the tasks and I'm left with only some filing and opening of letters, (yeah, as pathetic as peanuts). Felt kinda bad cos I think there was really nothing left for me to do and everyone was finding things or creating task for me. Think my manager feels bad to ask me leave too lah. So might as well I initiate it~
In addition..
Last weekend was a devastasting one for me cos' something significant and unexpected took place and changed my directions completely.
Anyway, it's sunshine after rain now. I've gotten over it and ready to move on with life!
(that's one of the reason why I didnt want to blog immediately cos if I do, the entry will be filled with vulgarities spewed in moments of tianz's anger)
lol~

Work now, to someone like me who orginally already hated the idea of working is no difference from taking a tour to hell~
Ever since the permanent staff came, everything and everyone changed. 
For instance,I've to give up my sitting area for her and move to the HR side.
And when I shifted there, the accounts people wont even come n talk to me or tell me it's lunch time..
Well, I dont mean that shifting to the HR side is a bad thing lar, at least i can slack and msn chat the whole day
but now all i am doing was filing and endless filing,
unlike the past, where i can write cheques, prepare payment..
Neither am I jealous that people are talking to her not me, just that I was thinking, when u faced shortage of manpower, I shared your workload and provided aid, shouldnt you at least, come and ask how am I doing over other side or something?
It's like, do u mean when ur permanent staff comes u can just kick ur temp staff aside?
Moreover, somehow I feel that the newbie is kinda scheming lar, 
as in things like she wanted to dig information of others from me, asked me I working there till when..
as if my presence will jeapardise her position.
please, I am not anticipating myself of becoming the financal controller or something lor..
neither am i going to make something big in the company..
I just wish to past my hours peacefully and sad to say, slack-ly~
I am here just to earn some extra allowance to pamper myself with more bags, afew pair of shoes, and merchanises which I fancy on that's all.
So, go away and leave me alone~
Dont be to anxious to make me leave the company,
I will when I found a job with better pay~
No worries...
This is the working world~
So cruel, but so real...